I hate this feeling...

When you know you're going to cry. Your lips quiver, your heart pounds, your eyes sting. Your face clenches up, and then the tears start to fall.
You can't stop them, no matter how hard you try. And it's not little tears that just slide down your cheeks; it's big tears that make your eyes all red and puffy, your face is tear-stained and your body heaves.
You can't stop the tears and as you lie in your bed alone, you think of what you could have possibly done to stop the pain.


But there's nothing you can do, nothing anyone can say. These are the kind of tears and pain that needs to be cried out, but not talked out. And you know that you're hurting the people you love but you can't help it...


And sometimes, you just don't care.